10:24 PM
Monday, May 31, 2004
wathcing the mummy returns on tv now... this is the 2nd time i'm watching it... haha... anyway, was supposed to go to the lotr exhibition today... but in the end we didn't. coz i met louisa at j8 at like 3.40? then by the time we reached the science centre i'd be almost 5... and the thing closes at 6... so no point going... going on thursday instead... hope pinkie can join us this time... ya... so instead of going for the exhibition we went to orchard to roam around... went to far east. we bought identical rings and clip on earrings... yeah i bought it even though i have pierced ears. i bought a cross pendant from bits n pieces too... so nice!! and louisa bought a pendant with the word "you" on it. coz it's part of her name - you ting. so cool right? haha... then we went to tangs and bought SUSHI!! yummy!! ate them on the bus on the way home. took a double deck bus and sat upstairs so the bus driver wouldn't be able to see us eating... hahaha...oh, i'm celebrating my birthday tomorrow!!! YEE_HAH!!! heh, hope all goes well. my first time organising a party by myself... yuppz... so tomorrow i'll be meeting minh and abel at pasir ris mrt at 12. then we'll go buy the food for the bbq at white sands. hui shan and dominic will be meeting us at 2 to help us carry the stuff. hopefully we'll be able to start the bbq by 6. oh, but guess what... mummy will be there... and nainai too... sigh... not that i don't want them around but we'll feel more restricted with them there... and there won't be drinks i suppose... sigh... never mind... we'll have fun anyway... i hope!! haha... yeah i know i should be studying for block test 2 but who cares... there's still lotsa time i guess. shall officially start mugging on 4th june!! after all the birthday and lotr stuff... oh and i wanna watch harry potter too!! was supposed to go with my family, jarad, fabian and sherry on saturday morining but i've got gp lessons on that day!! argh!! sobz...
Ibara no Namida: (i love this!!!)
The oath deep in my heart floated
to the dampened and seemingly hopeless sky
Every word we exchange, like a people of foreign lands
These castle walls that have gravely stood against time tower over us
Ah lead my faithful soul to eternity
Am I having a good time in vain while heaven flutters down?
Before everything prostrates itself
Even if this blood drawn by briars dries out,
hold my heart for you
The rain continues to fall if you can rejuvenate your desires
and my love will wake up from the illusion its buried in
ah the master who steals even my devoted prayer
Am I having a good time in vain while heaven flutters down?
Before everything prostrates itself
Even if this blood drawn by briars dries out,
hold my heart for you
Bound in the flames I raise my voice
Don't kill that distorted love
even if this burning body is reduced to ash,
if they're not too dirty at that time bring
them with you and then softly hold them
Shh, it's..here..
11:41 AM
Friday, May 28, 2004
YAY!!! HALF DAY TODAY!!! ended lessons already... at long last the hols are FINALLY here!! well, although i still hafta study for block test during the hols but i don't hafta wake up at 5.30!! anyway... so ya... i'm done with school for today... but am i going home? OF COZ NOT!!! gonna watch troy with pinkie and maybe nicole... finally get to watch it... waited so long!!! and we're watching it at orchard... that means we're almost definately shopping after that!! yippee!!! oh and my birthday is just next week!!! hehez... can't wait to be 18...
Niji!:
My feelings are filled with the performance of time,
with a clear voice,the endless future continues to walk to your eyes
My heart is honestly fragile
Everybody around me is breaking
Suddenly, in the sudden rain, although you stopped again,
you still believe in me
Higher than everybody else
Close to the sky
I am close to something bright and shiny
I wished for light
If I were burning, I will be o.k.
Everything is accompanying the truth
"The boy saw the the hatred to which he is hiding a persons shadow."
I don't want to see this kind of world anymore
No more! No more! No more!
But I still think of you,
even if the season is coming to an end
It has rained many times but now it has stopped
It looks like the scene which
I always watched with my eyes closed
The person in pain
The dream which never comes true
Why does love have to be born in my chest?
The flowers that are blossoming are sinking back into the ground
The time is filled with love
With a clear voice continues
to give the endless night to your eyes
Shh, it's..here..
9:28 AM
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
sobz... leng sim isn't in school today... left me all alone... sobsob. dunno if she'll be going for the soccer finals later... i hope she is!! if not i'll probably have to go with jasmine or my classmates... haha. soccer finals. against vj. damn bloody excited!! it's gonna be at the national stadium!! whoa!! oh and i'll be watching troy with pinkie on friday... yay!!! i finally get to watch it!!! been waiting for so long... and i'll most probably be watching harry potter on 5 june... *grinz* movies galore!! my birthday's coming!! exactly a week away. i'll be celebrating it with my friends at pasir ris chalet... it'll gonna be fun!! no parents!!! yay!! freedom... hehe... so far leng sim and abel will be staying... hopefully more will wanna stay... but ming hwee and yew boon won't be coming!! ms wang too!! so sad... haven't seen them for ages... especially MING HWEE!!!! grrr...
Horizon:
The object of my desire
Is in the far off distant mirage
My heart cracked, aches in longing
If you'll hold me like a cradle
I won't need anything else
Before I knew it my shredded feeling was screaming on the endless sands
Eyes looking up, aimed at the sky
Let loose with brilliant arrows until they ran out
If we had met in calmer days
I would have liked to awakened to, "It was all a dream"
How long have I been waiting for you?
There's nothing here now but pain
The sunlight blinding me is shining
As if burning my icy heart
Eyes looking up, aimed at the sky
Let loose with brilliant arrows until they ran out
Struck by....
I grab onto tomorrow as if dragging it
Bringing with me
The barbed wire which wraps tighter around me
The more I struggle
Horizons rise here in my eyes
A sound of silence calls
But in my heart a distant hope
Is mine forever more
Eyes looking up, aimed for the sky
Let loose with brilliant arrows until they run out
Shh, it's..here..
1:45 PM
Friday, May 21, 2004
hehe... the server in school is finally up again... i can blog in school again!! yippee!! hmmm... lessons just ended... slept thoughout math and physics tutorial... so tired!! haha.. well... not uch to write today... had half day yesterday... dismissed at 12.50. i didn't wanna go home that early... duh... so i went to support abel for bowling. went with jasmine. abel told us it was at marina south. we didn't know where that was so jasmine called her sis to ask and she said it was at marina square. so we made our way there... got off the train at city hall, walked and walked and finally reached there!! and guess what... it was so empty!! obviously the wrong one!! so i called mavis to ask her where the place was and guess what? it was at marina bay!! so we walked back to the sation and took the train to marina bay. there we saw 2 nyjc bowlers and thought there were going there too. so we were like great! we can follow them! so we followed them to some bowling alley which was equally empty! in the end we found out that they weren't going to the competition!! argh!! so they like told us where the competition was and all and fortunately it wasn't that far away... walked there and by the time we reached it was already 3pm...well at least it wasn't over yet... haha...
Shh, it's..here..
11:25 PM
Sunday, May 16, 2004
Hitomi No Jyuunin... what a masterpiece...
kazoe kirenai demo sukoshino saigetsu ha nagare
ittai kimi wo kotowo dorekurai wakatterunokana
yubisaki de chizu tadoru youniha umaku ikanaine
kizuiteiruyo fuan souna kao kakushiteru kurai
isogi ashi no ashita heto teikou suruyouni
kake mayotte temo
fushigina kurai kono mune ha kimi wo egakuyo
miagereba kagayaki ha iroasezu afureteita
donna toki mo terashiteru
ano taiyou no youni naretanara ...
mou sukoshidake kimi no nioi ni dakarete itaina
soto no kuuki ni kubiwa wo hikare
boku ha se wo muketa
shiroku nijinda tameiki ni shirasareru
toki wo kurikaeshigara futo omounosa
naze boku ha kokoni irundarou
soba ni ite zutto kimi no egao wo mitsumeteitai
utsuriyuku shunkan ha sono hitomi ni sunde itai
dokomademo odayakana shikisai ni irodorareta
hitotsu no fuukeiga no naka yorisouyouni
toki wo tomete hoshii eien ni ...
soba ni ite zutto kimi no egao wo mitsumeteitai
utsuriyuku shunkan ha sono hitomi ni sunde itai
itsuno hi ka azayakana kisetsu heto tsuredasetara
yukiniyouni sorani saku hanano motohe hana no motohe
hmmm... no translation yet though...
Shh, it's..here..
11:56 PM
Friday, May 14, 2004
i know i should love you. but i don't. i'm trying... i know i am... i'm trying really hard but i find it so so difficult... do you love me? you think you do... i'm sure of that. but i'm pretty sure it's not me that you love but the "me" you wish i am... why can't you just love me for who i am? i'm not the nerd who studdies all the time... i'm not the neat freak who makes her bed everyday and always has a clean desk... i'm not the kind of person who gives in to people just because they're of higher authority... why can't you accept that? maybe that's why i find it so hard to love you... because you have yet to accept the real me let alone love the real me... please stop trying to mould me into the person who want me to be... it won't work. it never will...
and you... yes YOU!!! stop picking on me!! you and your stupid pharmaceutical shirt... i know i'm not the best student in your eyes... heck in your eyes i may not even be a good or decent person... but what right have you to judge? do you know me? NO!! you can't even pronounce my name properly!! since the first day i saw you we haven't even spoken!! what do you know of me to judge?? you think others will like you just because you're nice to them? so you can afford enemies?? well, guess what... even your pet doesn't like you. when will you wake up and realise that we are people? we are people. we have lives. we're not geeks or freaks who do nothing but tutorials and lug our tys everywhere... WAKE UP!!!
we had the flea market thingis again today... spent the whole of last night making accessories and guess what? didn't even sell a single one... so disappointing!!! well, i'm disappointed not so much because i didn't sell anything but because no one actually supported me and leng sim. where are friends when you need them man!! you are my friends right? or am i wrong?? what the hell are classmates for!! frankly speaking i have never felt any bond between us... and this lack of unity just became more apparent after today. again, what are classmates for? just to tease us? is it? sorry but that's not my idea of classmates... maybe i'm expecting too much... maybe after having such a superglue class in cj i just expect every class to be like that... you know, skip school together, go to east coast and all... i dunno... maybe this is just reality and i have yet to face up to it... anyway, watched van helsing today with nicole, pinkie and gerrad. wanted to take neoprints but there wasn't a single machine in sight... sadness... after the movie i rushed off to tuition while the three of them... i dunno what they did... haha... thought i was gonna be late for tuition. in the end reached at 5.59. supposed to start at 6. and i was the first one! haha... as usual... those people are rarely puntual anyway... didn't need to rush actually... haha...
Promised Land:
Flowers are blooming, flowers of various colors are....
If you dream, by all means do so, because you're going to lose consciousness
Let's make the rain fall down, rain that will never come to an end
but anyway, even you will die along with time
The hungry wolves fabricating love
So come on, believe in me
The unstopping flame is advancing
after the moment of waking up to late,
it's time to say so long
Let's all bring up some love
How wonderful those words are
It can't be undone anymore, so there's no future
the fictitious story is, yes, a wonderful reality
Now in that case, immediately, come on, let's go to Mars
Taught history is the profile of conflict
So come on now, believe in the miracle
Prayers are being consumed by fire
In the never ending world of rubble,
who do you devote yourself to?
Devil's walk in the strawberry fields
Go ahead, please help yourself to these freshly squeezed tears
I'm lovable
Ah, going towards the night sky where there's no one else
Will you be rescued?
Devil's walk in the strawberry fields
Devil's walk in the strawberry fields
The unstopping flame is advancing
After the moment of waking up too late, it's time to say so long
Devil's walk in the strawberry fields
Go ahead, please help yourself to these freshly squeezed tears
Tastes just like honey, doesn't it?
Shh, it's..here..
11:58 PM
Friday, May 07, 2004
haha... revamped again!! pretty nice huh... i'll miss seeing sanzo everytime i visit my blog though... so anyway, i just came back from math tuition. it was not too bad i guess... curve sketching isn't that difficult compared to the others... was sitting beside celestine and was laughing away with her... she was putting the OHP lens ver mr lee's coins and was so amused to see the coins magnified... hahahaha.... the way she laughs... oh my gosh!!! half expected her to start rolling on the floor... guess there was not much floor space that's why she didn't?? haha... ok... had my 2.4 this morning... i made it below 16 min!!! kinda slow but at least it's still a C. so my napfa results: sit-ups A, standing broad jump C, sit and reach C, inclined pull-up B, shuttle run C, 2.4 C. that means i got a gold!!! hurray!!!! yay... since i've got a gold a don't have to attend pe anymore... 2 more free periods!!! oh and i heard sophie fainted after getting her wisdom teeth extracted. poor girl!! got sent to the hospital... hope she gets better soon man... she probably bled too much or something... well, i best be off now... got a long day ahead of me tomorrow... career seminar in the morning, follwed by stock taking for co-op, then choir practice, mass, after mass practise then i get to go home... that would be around 10 plus at night already...
Singin in the Rain:
The silent raining sounds stimulates my feelings
Humming along the street, I think about you
Ah....in brilliant colors,
I swing my umbrella in the street that I always walk in
And as usual I return with heaps of questions
Suddenly, I stop to look up to the sky above
Drop by drop, the rain glitters
Always raining in my heart,
I'm embraced gently in the rain that you love
The wonderful song is still playing till now
I'm just singing in the rain....with you
Everytime I detour I'll let out a sigh
I guess there is no other way to do it
Then the rain stopped for you
Ah....and this day, time will be awakened
Always raining in my heart,
I'm embraced gently in the rain that you love
The wonderful song is still playing till now
I'm just singing in the rain....with you
Always raining in my heart,
I'm embraced gently in the rain that you love continuing and continuing and non-stop
Wanting to take you along more and more and non-stop wanting to embrace you
because my heart will not die....
Shh, it's..here..
1:53 PM
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
Fourth Avenue Cafe:
The season has announced its end
Dreaming at the colourful memories
Oh goodbye! The one who has brought love along
Appearing at the back of my eyes
Don't believe right from the beginning
There will be unchangeable love
Lost in the view of the changing street
People who passes by
Now has a distant feeling
When the noisy people slowly pass by
Disappear in a sound of sigh
Facing the empty chair
During the boring holiday
You have endlessly appear in the sea of mind
Although the heart understands but pretending not to know
Actually I am sinking forever
Sinking in someone's thought
Even though it is only a face but still with the same beauty
The season has announced its end
Dreaming at the colorful memories
Oh goodbye! The one who has brought love along
Appearing at the back of my eyes
Actually....Still for how long?
Coming and going....like the tides
Yes,in the hours of aspiration time never stops
Coming and going…like the tides
Hitting my heart
The street of today still recalls lot of memories
Craving on every single scene
Oh goodbye! The one who has brought love along
Loving with despair at the distant sky
Appearing at the back of my eyes
On the ever changing scene of the street, I sigh reluctantly
Shh, it's..here..
1:12 PM
seems like i only blog on wednesdays huh... haha... anyway i'm hiding in the library now waiting for the rain to stop... stupid rain... refuse to let me go home early. and i'm supposed to buy lunch for adam and calvin too... and as usual i forgot to bring my umbrella... shhh... don't tell mummy... she'll start nagging... yuppz... bought laruku's new album smile yesterday... so nice!! listened to it like 3 or 4 times already... oh and i borrowed manga from angie... first love... the art isn't very appealing but the story is nice!! finished 2 books already... sigh... math test tomorrow... better study for it... haven't been doing well for math... and i've still got my gp essay to do!! argh... hate this... okies, lets go see if the rain has stopped...
Shh, it's..here..