11:31 PM
Wednesday, June 30, 2004
sigh... i wanted to revamp... but i can't seem to access blogskins and all the super nice templates are there...
Shh, it's..here..
10:29 PM
yay!! finally!! BT2's finally over... whew... i think i'm dead though... let's see...
Day 1-GP:
"Your peers are your best teachers." Explain the validity of this statement... yeah something like that... that's the question i chose for my essay... i wrote like only 2 pages... no wait. not 2 pages... 2 sides... basically only 2 to 3 points... pretty short but i hope it'll do... hope for leniency... haha... as for compre... the passage was something about childhood crisis? i was like what the hell... damn hard... i was kinda short of time so i had to rush through my AQ... hope i was making some sense there... summary was tough...
Day 2-Math:
one of the toughest papers i've seen... complex numbers was tough... so was functions. i think integration was supposed to be easy but i couldn't do it... i could do differential equations though!! hopefully i got that correct... and that last question on discrete probability distributions too... i managed to do it but it required a LOT of thinking... i hope i pass man...
Day 3-Computing and Physics:
having these 2 subjects on the same day is one of the worst things that can happen... computing was pretty alright i guess... only that i didn't know how to do the entire qn3 and that cost me 12 marks... i wasn't very sure bout some stuff under mr yit's section but managed to crap some stuff... physics was a major disaster... since i've got 2 papers today i spent the whole of last night studying computing as i thought it needed more mugging... i didn't really touch physics as i studied quite a bit during the hols and i'd still have time to study in between papers. i studied every chapter, memorized every formula there was... and i still couldn't do the paper... i doubt i'll be able to pass...
but anyway... it's all OVER!!! yayyayyay!!!!
Shh, it's..here..
10:10 PM
Sunday, June 27, 2004
block test 2 starts tomorrow with GP being the first paper... oh no... sigh... hope for the best... just hope that politics won't come out for the compre. politics sucks... big time... math's on tuesday. haven't studied integration yet... will do so tomorrow i suppose... and i'm not particularly good at any of the topics either... again, hope for the best. wednesday will be the worst day. computing and physics on the same day... that's so gonna kill us man!! well i dunno bout the rest but it sure is gonna kill me. i spent more time on physics this time... so i really hope i'll be able to pass... as for computing... omg... i've been cramming these few days... but still, there's a limit to how much info my brain can hold... i'm so gonna die...
Shh, it's..here..
12:28 AM
Friday, June 25, 2004
i'm slacking again... that's like the last thing i should be doing now huh... block test 2 starts next week... that's like only a few days away man... omg... i'm looking at hyde pics now... omg!! *faints* haha... well, nothing much to blog about today... studied with leng sim at woodlands library... then had physics tuition. and lucky celine's in japan... argh!! just can't wait for exams to be over!!
Shh, it's..here..
12:11 AM
Sunday, June 20, 2004
"Nobody's Home" ~ Avril Lavigne
I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.
What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
Love this song... my fave song in her album... adam bought me her album for my birthday... argh!! i'm like so overwhelmed now... overwhelmed by the amount of stuff i've gotta study... block test 2's like 1 week away... have yet to study computing... don't even know where to start!! and my math sucks big time... i can't integrate for nuts, can't do complex numbers to save my life... physics? 3 more chapters so study... and i can't say i really understand those i have already studied... i'm so screwed man... and i can't afford to do badly... i already did badly for block test 1... don't wanna screw up block test 2 too... watching the latvia vs germany match now... for some strange reason i hope latvis wins... haha... ivan treated us to dinner just now... *grinz* and boy did i stuff myself!! so happy to see the choir just now... although i didn't see them for just one week... haha... but pinkie's still not back yet!! or is she?? i dunno... *looks out of window* luck celine's in japan!! i'm so filled with jealousy... i wanna go too!!
Heaven's Drive:
You just don't tire of it
What do you want next?
I'm almost eaten to the bone
by starving lips unconscious of their sin, oh leave me alone
Tracing your wounds
I like your gasping voice
Being teased by the snake through the lens
Feeling like you're imprisoned
take me away, accelerating at speeds enough to destroy me
Light the world on fire
Ride on heaven's drive
Steal tomorrow, laugh til the morn
Ride that brand new ark
My body is going to be poisoned
Ah....prisoner of the reaper
Making too many nightmares which swell beyond anyone's control
I'm madly in love with a bright sunbeam
Everything is blown away
Ride on heaven's drive
Before you take the punishment of your travelling companion
On that new ark with you....
look for a light without end
as you like, just turn to it and go
Ride that new ark....
Ride on heaven
So get the key and start the engine running
Ride that ark
Shh, it's..here..
12:23 PM
Monday, June 14, 2004
oh my goodness gracious me... i'm feeling terrible now... i'm aching all over after swimming yesterday and my sprained ankle still hurts... yeah i fell yesterday and sprained my ankle... how embarrassing!! good thing there weren't that many people around... and good thing it isn't a serious sprain. it's a little swollen but it didn't turn purple or anything... yuppz... so i still went for a swim even though i sprained my ankle. surprisingly i still managed to swim normally!! my ankle didn't get worse or anything... hehe... so the next time you sprain your ankle and still wanna keep fit, go swim!! haha... oh and greece won portugal 2-1!! yay!! thanx greece!! i won $41!!! *grinz* ok, time to study!!
Secret Letters:
In the courtyard birds singing
Through the window bells ringing
Oh so tall and wide, these confining walls
I look upon the world below
Sorrow seals our lips tightly
Horror stalks our sleep nightly
But my heart escapes from this attic room
I'm running freely through the town
I remember, remember you
I remember, still close to you
No need to fear the distance here
Peace is shattered by oppression
Tainted oil meets rejection
Yes and just in case I should soon return
My secret letters I will leave
I remember, remember you
I remember, still close to you
No need to fear the distance here
Boarding the train I take in one last look
I'll keep these memories with me forever
I remember, remember you
I remember, still close to you
No need to fear the distance here
I remember, remember you
I remember, still close to you
No need to fear the distance here
Shh, it's..here..
9:52 PM
Saturday, June 12, 2004
i'm home!!! just came back from bangkok... OMG!! shopped and shopped so much!! bought quite a number of stuff...
Day 1:
reached bangkok at around 5 or 6 in the evening... checked in at amari watergate hotel. didn't do much... went to this mall near the hotel but it was so late almost everyting was closed. like i said, didn't do much.
Day 2:
started the day with a short tour... went for some klong tour. we sat in some boat which i think was a ferry? it looked rather old but the ride surprisingly wasn't that bad... i didn't feel dizzy or seasick or whatsoever... went to see a temple... there were many people selling stuff outside the temple but i didn't really buy anything... after the tour we went to MBK center. it's this really big mall... lotsa stuff there... and so the shopping started!! spent the rest of the day shopping there and at siam square which was juz beside MBK. palmy told me about the place... she said the place sold lots of really cheap teen stuff... and OMG!! the stuff there were really cheap!!! so i bought a top for 129 baht, a belt which i forgot the price but was cheap, and a pair of shoes for 299 baht. not bad huh... but it was so super duper crowded there... full of students... hey! thai girls are really sexy!! haha... we had japanese food for dinner... kinda weird... go thailand to eat japanese food? haha.
Day 3:
woah this was my favourite day. went to this market near the hotel... forgot the name... it was super hot, kinda dirty, stray animals everywhere... but the shopping was damn good!! bought 3 tops for i think 150 baht? haha can't remember... a pair of earrings for 45 baht, a really nice skirt for only 99 baht!! hmm... anything else? oh another 2 tops for... i forgot how much... coz mummy paid for those... hehe... after that we walked around... mummy bought some stuff... then we were back at MBK. i had tom kha kai and rice for lunch. YUMMY!! ate till i was totally stuffed!! but walked it off after that... went to shop again of course... coz we didn't explore the whole building the day before... mummy bought lotsa stuff... for the tuition kids i think... stuff like handphone pouches... i only bought bags... one for myself, 1 for leng sim and 1 for jasmine... oh the most unforgettable moment!! i was walking around on the hird floor of MBK when suddenly my ears pricked up as i heard a sensational sound!! it was none other than... *drumroll please* HYDE'S VOICE!!! they were playing HnJ!!! YEE-HAH!!! just when i was starting to miss laruku/hyde's music... didn't bring my discman you see...
Day 4:
last day... hardly did anything... went for breakfast then adam and i went up to the hotel room to laze around while mummy and daddy went back to that market... bought adam a pair of pants... soon it was time to check out and we were on our way home... the flight was kinda rough coz of turbulance... adam almost threw up... but i was fine!! watched LOTR on the plane... hehe... so... yuppz... i'm home!! finally...
Shh, it's..here..
2:51 PM
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
i'm at the airport now!! leaving really really soon... so... you guys won't be seeing me for the next 4 days... BYE!!~~
Shh, it's..here..
10:13 PM
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
ok... don't have much time now so will make this quick. gotta prepare for my trip ya... anyway... my handphone's spoilt... AGAIN!! can't receive any msgs and can't change the profile. so it's like forever on silent mode... bleahz... so i hafta use the old 3310 now... good thing it's still around. i dunno how i'm gonna live without a phone!! the 3310's rather heavy and all but at least it's better than nothing... yeah... tried to get my parents to get me a new phone... wanna get 3200... which cost i think $180++ if i trade in my 6610. but my parents rather send my phone for servicing... sobz... too bad!! yeah so i better get going... gotta continue packing... BANGKOK HERE I COME!!! hehe... well, not yet... tomorrow...
A Silent Letter:
My finger tips can no longer reach the distant night sky
I'll undo the twinkling stars and set them free
Stay with me until I fall asleep
Don't let go with that gentle hand
like when I would get lost as a child
When I opened the window today,
I heard the footsteps of the season
Ah, you're manner and smiles are my everything
Stay with me what should I do?
I may not always be able to look at you kindly
like when I would get lost as a child ...goodbyes are
....I have been thinking about you
Dear my love I'll cross even the farthest oceans with these arms
and I'll never be afraid again of the stormy days
Are you feeling inbetween the rise and fall of the waves, looking up
the swirl of stars is beautiful,
like when I would get lost as a child ....goodbyes are
Shh, it's..here..
8:23 PM
Monday, June 07, 2004
ok , so i just reached home... just watched harry potter with pinkie. ya... like why the hell am i watching movie when i should be studying for block test right? i studied! i really did!! i dunno if i studied enough but i really did. went to school today to study physics. managed to study... lets see... AC and most of nuclear physics. how's that?! haha... i've still got lots to study though... haven't touched math at all... and barely started computing... sigh... so much to do, so little time... plus i'll be out of town soon... will be flying off to bangkok on wed and will be back on sat. yay!! shopping!! hehe... anyway, i guess i'll hafta bring stuff there to study... or else the amount of stuff i'll hafta study will overwhelm me even more... argh!! study study study... it never ends does it...
A Drop Of Colour:
Confusion rules this shifting age
And uproar fills the town
My thoughts of you are drowning in the noise
How could you know?
Why should you know me?
You gently nourish my dry skin
A drop of colour saves me from
The fate I'm facing everyday
A single bloom piercing the snowdrift
How softly,the springtime breezes sing
How deeply,the distant mountains breathe
There are so many things to show to you
Oh why does hate bring forth more hate?
A long abandoned fruit
Is hastening the process of decay
This country's starved,it's void of feeling
How softly,the springtime breezes sing
How deeply,the distant mountains breathe
There are so many things to show to you
How softly,the springtime breezes sing
How deeply,the distant mountains breathe
There are so many things to show to you
One of these days
Shh, it's..here..
12:45 AM
Saturday, June 05, 2004
i was thinking of posting this some other time but i can't help it... wanna post it now... hehe...
In Your Eyes, ^o^hitoni no jyuunin^.^V:
Don't know how long... but it's been some time,
How much do I really know about you?
Following the map with my fingertips isn't getting us anywhere,
I see how it distresses you in your face,
so much you try to conceal it
It's strange... how even as I run in circles
as if resisting my advance to a busy future
my heart still draws you
When I looked up, the radiance had filled the sky
without losing any of its lustre.
If only we could be like that sun always shining
I want to be embraced in your scent.... if just a little longer
the outside air pulls my collar, but I turned my back to it.
My sighs blurring white in the air, inform me of the season
going through it again, a thought occurred to me,
What am I doing here?
I want to stay here watching you smile forever
I want to live each changing moment in your eyes,
in that one scene forever colored in gentle hues
to bring us close together, I want to stop time forever.
I want to stay here watching you smile forever
I want to live each changing moment in your eyes,
If one day I could bring you to a serene season
to the flowers blooming in the sky like snowflakes.
....to the flowers
Shh, it's..here..
12:18 AM
ok i meant to write this like yesterday... but mummy didn't let me use the comp. so lame right? i'm 18 already and i still don't have the freedom to use the comp whenever i want to. yes! i'm 18!! finally!! haha... my birthday bbq was pretty fun. got to see rene, jas, adeline and my cj classmates again. we all had a great time... i hope!! took lotsa photos!! will post them here some other time. anyway, after the bbq we had so much leftovers!! i didn't know 20 people ate so little!! and there were quite a few guys too... i always thought guys has HUGE appetites... ya... so only leng sim and i stayed over at the chalet... we slept at like 12plus coz we were really really tired. sigh... and i thought we weren't gonna sleep at all!! the next morning we ate chips for breakfast!! yummy!! ruffles sour cream and onion. my favourite!! yeah... oh and presents!! rene, jas and adeline gave me a pair of really pretty butterfly earrings which i'm wearing now and the rasmus' cd. yay! now i don't hafta spend money buying it... *grinz* my cj classmates gave me a winnie the pooh clock. DON"T WORRY I'M NOT SUPERSTITIOUS!! yeah... don't hafta worry bout such stuff ya... see, it isn't difficult to get me a gift. haha... not like some troublesome people... can't give clock, can't give blades, etc etc. such people are so hard to please... as if we really mean harm my giving you a gift. i mean, if we didn't like you we wouldn't even bother bout getting a gift right? and if people mean to wish you well, why spoil it all by being so sensitive over such stuff? haha... ok... shall stop being mean towards superstitious people... oh ya... went for the lord of the rings exhibition yesterday. went with louisa, stefanie and her sister. i think her name's melanie? *shrugs* yuppz... had hell of a good time there... the costumes, weapons, armour... wow!!! so nice!!! wanted to buy the evenstar but guess what... the cheapest one costs $140!!! how the hell am i gonna get so much money?!?! *faints* but it was beautiful... what a waste i couldn't afford it... yeah... so now it's time to get down to serious studying i suppose... block test 2's end of this month... i really wanna do well this time... to make up for my lousy grades for block test 1 i guess... yup. so i went to school to study today. i absolutely cannot study at home... for various reasons. i'll probably be going out everyday this hols to study. where i dunno. maybe school, maybe woodlands library... oh well...
Forever, Eien... yong2 yuan3... o.O whatever languge you want...:
The waves roll in and out at my feet
your little boat playing with the far off moon
rocks gently on its way to me
If I feel it painfully, then why?
A love I can't bring myself to speak of,
feelings I'll surely have forever
Touched by the sweet skin, the blood flows in
wraps me in a soft heat
and fills up the bottom of my heart
I want to rain down
so much love upon you always
now, I wish for an eternity
Bless this starry sky that lights our meeting
.... it's so very pretty.
The guidance of the swirling stars is magic
who should I thank for this?
I devote my love to you forever
for an eternity
Shh, it's..here..