i know i should love you. but i don't. i'm trying... i know i am... i'm trying really hard but i find it so so difficult... do you love me? you think you do... i'm sure of that. but i'm pretty sure it's not me that you love but the "me" you wish i am... why can't you just love me for who i am? i'm not the nerd who studdies all the time... i'm not the neat freak who makes her bed everyday and always has a clean desk... i'm not the kind of person who gives in to people just because they're of higher authority... why can't you accept that? maybe that's why i find it so hard to love you... because you have yet to accept the real me let alone love the real me... please stop trying to mould me into the person who want me to be... it won't work. it never will...
and you... yes YOU!!! stop picking on me!! you and your stupid pharmaceutical shirt... i know i'm not the best student in your eyes... heck in your eyes i may not even be a good or decent person... but what right have you to judge? do you know me? NO!! you can't even pronounce my name properly!! since the first day i saw you we haven't even spoken!! what do you know of me to judge?? you think others will like you just because you're nice to them? so you can afford enemies?? well, guess what... even your pet doesn't like you. when will you wake up and realise that we are people? we are people. we have lives. we're not geeks or freaks who do nothing but tutorials and lug our tys everywhere... WAKE UP!!!
we had the flea market thingis again today... spent the whole of last night making accessories and guess what? didn't even sell a single one... so disappointing!!! well, i'm disappointed not so much because i didn't sell anything but because no one actually supported me and leng sim. where are friends when you need them man!! you are my friends right? or am i wrong?? what the hell are classmates for!! frankly speaking i have never felt any bond between us... and this lack of unity just became more apparent after today. again, what are classmates for? just to tease us? is it? sorry but that's not my idea of classmates... maybe i'm expecting too much... maybe after having such a superglue class in cj i just expect every class to be like that... you know, skip school together, go to east coast and all... i dunno... maybe this is just reality and i have yet to face up to it... anyway, watched van helsing today with nicole, pinkie and gerrad. wanted to take neoprints but there wasn't a single machine in sight... sadness... after the movie i rushed off to tuition while the three of them... i dunno what they did... haha... thought i was gonna be late for tuition. in the end reached at 5.59. supposed to start at 6. and i was the first one! haha... as usual... those people are rarely puntual anyway... didn't need to rush actually... haha...
Promised Land:
Flowers are blooming, flowers of various colors are....
If you dream, by all means do so, because you're going to lose consciousness
Let's make the rain fall down, rain that will never come to an end
but anyway, even you will die along with time
The hungry wolves fabricating love
So come on, believe in me
The unstopping flame is advancing
after the moment of waking up to late,
it's time to say so long
Let's all bring up some love
How wonderful those words are
It can't be undone anymore, so there's no future
the fictitious story is, yes, a wonderful reality
Now in that case, immediately, come on, let's go to Mars
Taught history is the profile of conflict
So come on now, believe in the miracle
Prayers are being consumed by fire
In the never ending world of rubble,
who do you devote yourself to?
Devil's walk in the strawberry fields
Go ahead, please help yourself to these freshly squeezed tears
I'm lovable
Ah, going towards the night sky where there's no one else
Will you be rescued?
Devil's walk in the strawberry fields
Devil's walk in the strawberry fields
The unstopping flame is advancing
After the moment of waking up too late, it's time to say so long
Devil's walk in the strawberry fields
Go ahead, please help yourself to these freshly squeezed tears
Tastes just like honey, doesn't it?
Shh, it's..here..
